That is a beautifull way of honoring them!!

Ive had 2 tattoos done in different ocasions while high, i cant 100 percent say for sure but those where the only ones that got infected out of 13

Once i got just 3 x's when went to amsterdam as it was kind of a local logo. After coming back to nsw people started refering to me as the porn weed dude( as i had them tattoed under a cartoony bud) 2 weeks later just covered them up with 3 squares, less shamefull this way

that does sound like a quarter life crisis to me. Could be worse mate, you could have sunk a ton o money into an audi rs7 , just one day to wake up to realise you dont have money for rent... like myself